There is a time for everything and a season for every activity under Heaven . . . Ecclesiastes 3:18
For me, 2017 is a time for ushering in a season of transparency. For a long time, I spent a great deal of energy wondering if people liked me; trying to please “them”; hoping not to rock the boat; wanting to be somebody’s first choice, somebody’s favorite person; desiring to be liked by most; worried if I said or did something that accidentally offended someone else; spending a great deal of time and energy trying to please people. I am loud by nature and a bit “over the top”. Some people find it to be too much and that used to hurt my feelings. My husband now refers to me as “Holy Spirit Popcorn”. He sees the beauty in my loud, “over the top” exuberance for life. Thank you, Jesus!
A few years ago, I finally entered a REAL season in my life. I have spent more time alone over the past two years–studying, repenting, living, loving, enjoying,breathing. I live more intentionally for God and not for the world. Most of our world is made up of people pleasers. The majority of people are not sure of who they truly are. People are running around playing the same game I was playing–afraid to truly be themselves for fear of “not being accepted by the majority”. It’s fueled by the fear of being alone. The fear of “not being invited”. The fear of “being talked about” by others. The fear of “not being included”. The fear of “being different”. What would people say if they knew the REAL me? Would they accept me? What would happen if I didn’t fit in any longer?
The simple truth is this: If you are not brave enough to live your authentic life, you are robbing yourself. You can do it for awhile. But eventually it will show up. It will show up emotionally, physically, and spiritually. It will begin to break you down bit by bit. It will eat at you. You will be so busy changing yourself to please others and “fit in” that you probably won’t notice all the little monthly, yearly changes. The small changes and wrong decisions add up over time. Then one day you will look in the mirror and no longer recognize the image staring back at you. This scary moment will rock you at your very core! Then that question stares your tear-stained eyes in the face, “How the heck did I get here and how do I get back?”
We don’t have to let fear control us. Fear kills our God-given destiny. We can choose to live and walk forward in faith. We don’t have to let anxiety have the reins of our lives. We can live in hope. We don’t have to try to please everyone. We can live to please one–our Creator. His love is unconditional and His mercy and grace are never-ending.
It has been said that I have turned into a “Jesus Freak”. This sort of makes me giggle and I take it as a compliment. I am finally beginning to understand the authority and power I have been given through Christ. God has allowed me to witness many miracles over the past four years. I have also cried many tears and watched wonderful people say their final goodbyes here on earth. I don’t have all the spiritual answers, but I do know The One who does. One day when I meet God in Heaven, I will have many questions for Him. Until then, I will continue to do His work here on earth.
2017 . . . may it be the year you stop worrying about what “they” think about you and start believing in what HE thinks about you! He loves and adores you! Do not be afraid to live your authentic life! Do not be afraid to be the REAL you! Step into your God-given destiny. It probably won’t line up with the world’s view of you. That’s ok! It’s not supposed to. You were not created to please the world. You were created to please God! And in pleasing God, you will change the world for the better. . . one person at a time!